Saturday, August 28, 2010

~ Getting through the days ~

Hello sweet friends! It's been so long since my last post and life has certainly changed a lot for me this summer. Of course I thought I would be spending this summer with both my Mom and Dad, but as you know from my last post , my dear Father passed away. So I want to start this post with telling you all , that I read each and every caring and loving word of sympathy! Your support was overwhelming and so completely appreciated. I adore each of you for taking the time to help me through such a loss. Your letters and comments warmed my heart and showed me yet again, what incredible , beautiful and caring people are out in blogland! So Thank you dear friends, from the bottom of my heart....

I'm not completely back in the swing of things , but I am thoroughly enjoying the blessings of now having my mother close by. Pretty soon my posts will be about decorating again and life will go on...It's during the rough patches we all go through that I think we learn the most... I knew I was a lucky girl, but to have my Mom living close by at this time in my life is truly a blessing. We've gotten through this month by doing so many little things, and it's good therapy :) My post is about just that.... The little things I've been doing to heal...and the little things we find great joy in....

I think I got through this month at first, by having incredible things happen that show me my Dad is right next to me...I mean really neat things! Like an owl visiting my Mom the night he passed away, something that isn't common in her area and owls have always been my Mothers favorite sight... She hadn't seen one in 20 years before that evening. :) And for me, it's this constant sense of him near, it's this sense of feeling protected somehow, hard to explain, but it's just something I know.

I find joy and solace in knowing that I have another guardian Angel...So I've spent some time reading about them...and it warms my heart to know he's with me ...

I've also spent so much time reminiscing too... I lay out all the photos and albums and pour over them...

What gifts we have been given to love one another! There is no greater feeling than to love, and be loved!

I've spent time unpacking with Mom and finding treasures to bring home to my house too :) I love "shopping" at her house... :)

I've also had quite moments of solitude too, where I can appreciate the time I was given with him...

And I can look into his favorite dogs eyes every day and still see him pat her head and say " what a good dog". My Dad was one of the kindest , happiest people I will ever know. And animals knew it too :)

I've spent a LOT of time cooking and baking, hmmm, maybe a little too much :) But again, it's good therapy ...with yummy results...

My Daughter and I got to go over to "Grandma's house" ( ahhhh... I just love the sound of that sentence, being that for 20 years she lived way too far away to do this ) and bake for an entire day!

again, it's the little gifts of life that keep me happy and grateful ...

We made breads and pies galore...

It just felt so right to have the 3 generations of women , all together, baking and cooking... I'm going to love that part of my Mom being close by so much!

I've always loved a good glass of wine, now I love it on the deck with Mom....

Oh the simple , sweet days....ahhhhh..

I've also done a little "retail therapy" too... yes , guilty :) ...Of course, another pie dish , because I cannot say no to them .... My Mom has discovered Home Goods and I know I don't need to say another sentence, she *gasped* at "our" new favorite store ...

And I've also relished as many of these summer days as we have left... I'm sure I'm getting ready to say good-bye to the pretty pink blooms of summer, but with every good-bye comes a new season. A new chance to love something else.

Speaking of love and life.... I'll leave you with this one little lesson I learned, and by the love you poured out to me, I think you already know it.... But just in case....

~ Tell every one you love, that you love them , every single day ~ Than you will always feel good :)


I love you all !

I hope you are all having a wonderful summer and enjoying all the special moments you can!
Btw, I'll be shooting a lot of photos of my Moms new home, we are still decorating and giving it the final touches, but I think you will love it :)

Thank you again for your friendship and caring!

Love, Cynthia

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

~ A loss felt deeply ~

Hi sweet friends, I am sad to report here that my Dear , sweet, loving and beautiful Father passed away on July 27th 2010. I was so happy to have them living back up here in NY and about a week after my parents arrival, my Dad took a very fast downward turn and quietly passed away in his sleep on July 27th. My heart is broken and I will miss him every day of my life... During one of the sadness experiences of my life, I have to say that many blessings were given to me also. He had told me before he came that he wasn't feeling well and that he would do everything he could to get here. We were prepared to have help at home with him, but not prepared to lose him so quickly. But days before he passed, we spent so many precious moments together, we told each other how much we loved each other a hundred times. I held his hand and stroked his head the day before and told him he was the best father a girl could ever ask for. He smiled at me and told me the same. I cannot thank God enough for this precious time I had with him. Or for the hour of " I love yous", or for the fact that every Grandchild got to hug him, or for such a beautiful intimate family service we had over the weekend of spreading his ashes over the LI Beach he grew up at as a boy. Or for being now surrounded my loved ones and having my Mother still be so healthy and now living so close to me. Or for the "Celebration of life" memorial we had in his honor bringing my best friend back to the love of her life and again, living next door to me....My Father was the most incredible Man to so many people and everyone loved him and each person he touched will be forever blessed by his friendship and love. I wish you all could have known him.

I am spending this time with my Mother who while she misses the love of life, is another exceptional , beautiful Lady and as strong as they come. After 58 years of marriage to him, she gathered the strength and love to call him and the time they shared a "Blessing" ... something she will be eternally grateful for. And it's the love my Father gave us, that keep us going and his legacy that keeps us strong too. I will love him and miss him every day of my life. But I will take that love as he wished and see it in every thing I do ... every day....

" What we once enjoyed and deeply loved we can never lose, for all that we love deeply becomes a part of us forever..." ( Helen Keller )



~ Cynthia ~